Here’s a place where I keep daily thoughts in a coherent and organized manner. Perhaps I’ll spill secrets

but it’s a place for the words in my head to live and the place where I'll come back to them.

It was my goal to do a “post mortem” of sorts analyzing all that occurred in the last about her, art-wise at least

I’ve been reading this book about storytelling and it got me thinking about my own story that I'm Perpetually writing. also the titles, copy, and content for my ever-new bodies of work, upcoming shows, and thesis whatever.

I realize that while I tend to teach u in an accent or binging on a feeling or an idea, the power of that comes in me zeroing in. on then how it feels

in a thc laced moment of clarity, yesterday. realized i don't come to terms with it. hesse is crying as I occupy them

I live in Miami but I don't live as I live here. It’s temporal t mee, not in a carpe diem way, in a way that doesn't have me put down. rots, in a way that's my closet filled with ghosts of the past, boxes spilling out. of the shelves, threatening to do something about it. threatening to fall out chance i peek past the sheet I use as a closet door.

I get my studio practice malign home life seems so transient, but it's time i. accept that I’m in Florida i lie here,…. the blues skies are home

the crazy drivers are my neighbors,

the beaches, where I should/could be more often…

but where is my mind right now, how i everything feeling..what is my work about

I'll maybe i can go back to the place where i crawled out from obscurity, let’s say in 2021

that’

s what. a post-mortem is.?

acrativite aaautospy to erect what’ past nd find a way to imbue the new with certain bone.

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in each little death from the tiels of the pieces, tot he reference image stop the subject matter, it wasvery important for me to commnciaate this idea that this ncmmon choice, nd uncommongn focus: sela appointed pleasure
seeing

WHy re you so ***[frid]*** obsessed with overcomeby, haanted by / love, l— is it coauz you’ve had enough? is it cux you’ve had to much?

I think exploring the now in ne’s art must start with exploring t he now in one’s life

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so my working that. one. showw, the. show where i crwledout oof oobscurigty…..self- appointed plesurue, el pleaassure, pleuechaasing, pleasure seeking, rmotisn. bout real things nad real topics, i think the tr e power. inertin things like only fns is that its giving pele aplatfrm t just dive into things WWE are all thinking about ,we are all doing, we are all discusi. g, it may be crude in a sense but its all abutuo cntext

nly faan llws fr that cntext.

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tha’s wyta i feel in this reltionhsi imin,in a along deistne relatinshi’

thedeesire. to be with someone who is far awaaya form you nad thedesire to putu aaide. the challenges oof being homan: desire and emotion to havene’s need smet instantly,

i think i tlk bouto latent seduction. ,that hraase cmaa et me, aand what this work is about lives inside of that hrse